Ya only 傻瓜 like me will AGAIN put in all my feelings to whom I tot I really can settle with. To other ppl, they might tot I haf already stepped out of the rship and go on with my life. I tot I am, i treated like nth, go out with frds, etc.. But I was terrified cos sometimes in the night, a sudden kick of absolute sadness just comes into my heart, I dunno how to take it. I dunno how to tell ppl that i am still hurt, and i try ways to stop it. actually i feel relieved after the break up, and ppl tell me its good cos he's not the one, which is true, i need someone more passionate and not tat self centered and selfish. I feel hurt cos even such a kind of guy can make lies like sounds 100% true, and i totally believed in that.
Are rships built on lies? If it is, why shd i be so true n open to my partner, I can just say I love you, I only want you and no one else, I want you FOREVER.
I dun wanna tell lies, cos I lost my most loved bf J because of lies. Why cant ppl just be true and say the truth, is that so hard? I just dun understand. And this time, I'm very straightforward, i deleted everything, every contact. But there is this bunch of keys which belonged to him which i cant just anyhow throw away. wth.
I dun even know shd i keep this blog.
